Who would have thought that Breast cancer would bring such fame. I had it, wrote a book about it, got the T shirt. now on Bill boards and magazines. I guess the world is so hungry for heroes they make anyone who has accomplished anything one. I have to say folks there are NO SUCH THING AS HEROES. Many Many people do heroic acts, but under close scrutiny fall short of a true Hero. Being sick and recovering certainly doesn't make one. The very worst thing that has come from all this fame, is having to put make up on every time I leave the house. So here is the next installment on my notoriety. www.TulareRegional.org//stories. click on my picture and read about what you already know.
Always your Breast friend,
Janie Kay
Sunday, January 20, 2013
Friday, December 28, 2012
Talk to me
Well the world didnt come to an end 12.21.2013. Same ole politics different day. I am still here. sometimes wondering why? Is this what they call survivors guilt? It was like being born again after I finished with my treatments and all the surgeries, I wanted to shout it from the rafters. Do good because I felt good. Be a light a beacon to help others going through what I went through. But now..... the shine has worn off, I feel like a worn out record. I have had plenty of publicity locally and nationally, even crossing the pond to Europe.
I feel richer in self worth , not so much in the bank account. We cannot rest on our past laurels, we have to keep striving to better ourselves going one step further. While I have no inclination to further my cause by any recurrence of Cancer, I do need to find a niche for myself and fill it. What do I want to be when I grow up?
Anyone out in there want to share their feelings on the aftermath of Cancer?
Let me hear what you have to say. I have learned that we have been given two ears for a reason, listen more than we speak.
Happy New Year to you all may 2013 be a year full of Blessings and Favor on you all.
Always your Breast Friend,
Janie Kay
xoxoxox
I feel richer in self worth , not so much in the bank account. We cannot rest on our past laurels, we have to keep striving to better ourselves going one step further. While I have no inclination to further my cause by any recurrence of Cancer, I do need to find a niche for myself and fill it. What do I want to be when I grow up?
Anyone out in there want to share their feelings on the aftermath of Cancer?
Let me hear what you have to say. I have learned that we have been given two ears for a reason, listen more than we speak.
Happy New Year to you all may 2013 be a year full of Blessings and Favor on you all.
Always your Breast Friend,
Janie Kay
xoxoxox
Monday, July 9, 2012
Pink Lemonade: Change vs Rearrange
Pink Lemonade: Change vs Rearrange: It has been a while since I last blogged. Life sure has a way of monopolizing your time don't you think? Change is inevitable, it is a c...
Change vs Rearrange
It has been a while since I last blogged.
Life sure has a way of monopolizing your time don't you think?
Change is inevitable, it is a constant for a healthy and productive life.
What changes can we make to insure that we get the most out of our relationships, self image, spirituality, home and finances?
We read about these self help tips and techniques every where, the checkout line of the grocery store women's magazines, talk shows and television doctors.
My theory has always been one of rearranging, never truly changing. I believe I am what God intended me to be. Take a look at Oprah for instance, she is the same person fat or thin. She gives from her heart. One of the wealthiest most influential woman in the world and yet she still has her demons about change.
Can outside influences MAKE us change, adapt and adjust?
I accept adaptation and adjusting its really just rearranging what you have to make you feel comfortable.
Deep huh.......
Change your circumstances or rearrange them?
If we are told we have to change or that a change is coming we panic thinking it is something bad. But if we are told we have to rearrange it is less offensive. We do not see it as a loss of something, rather moving things around to make things flow better.
My family struggles with my rearranging, I have been know to rearrange furniture while they sleep and it's their house.Some Love it, some...... well they will get used to it unless they want to change it back themselves.(I would never do this as a guest in a friends house).
I have had to rearrange my life a little over these past months. Moved to a new home, same furniture just rearranged it and everything looks like new.
I had plans to start a new business venture, but it vaporized. Now I look to see what else I can do. I have to create a need and fill it. I have skills professionally and personally through growth and maturity I know that by rearranging I can do anything I put my heart and soul into.
So that is the message...... Heart and soul, rearrange your life so that you can enjoy who you are.
Any thought?
Always your breast friend
Janie Kay
Life sure has a way of monopolizing your time don't you think?
Change is inevitable, it is a constant for a healthy and productive life.
What changes can we make to insure that we get the most out of our relationships, self image, spirituality, home and finances?
We read about these self help tips and techniques every where, the checkout line of the grocery store women's magazines, talk shows and television doctors.
My theory has always been one of rearranging, never truly changing. I believe I am what God intended me to be. Take a look at Oprah for instance, she is the same person fat or thin. She gives from her heart. One of the wealthiest most influential woman in the world and yet she still has her demons about change.
Can outside influences MAKE us change, adapt and adjust?
I accept adaptation and adjusting its really just rearranging what you have to make you feel comfortable.
Deep huh.......
Change your circumstances or rearrange them?
If we are told we have to change or that a change is coming we panic thinking it is something bad. But if we are told we have to rearrange it is less offensive. We do not see it as a loss of something, rather moving things around to make things flow better.
My family struggles with my rearranging, I have been know to rearrange furniture while they sleep and it's their house.Some Love it, some...... well they will get used to it unless they want to change it back themselves.(I would never do this as a guest in a friends house).
I have had to rearrange my life a little over these past months. Moved to a new home, same furniture just rearranged it and everything looks like new.
I had plans to start a new business venture, but it vaporized. Now I look to see what else I can do. I have to create a need and fill it. I have skills professionally and personally through growth and maturity I know that by rearranging I can do anything I put my heart and soul into.
So that is the message...... Heart and soul, rearrange your life so that you can enjoy who you are.
Any thought?
Always your breast friend
Janie Kay
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Picking the Right Nipple
I cannot believe next month June 7th it will be two years since I was diagnosed with invasive Breast Cancer.
There were some pretty tough times but overall it has been okay, I am still here and I have had a lot to laugh about during the last two years. The latest was my Last mammogram the first one I have had since my reduction surgery on my left breast.
They had to remove my left nipple and move it up higher. It would of looked really odd if they had left it in the same place and just reduced and lifted my breast. It probably would be somewhere below the curve of the breast facing down pointing to my left foot.
Even though the reduction surgery didnt hurt I was always a little nervous of the reattached nipple. It looked very pale and anemic of course there wasnt another one on the right side to compare it to. My Surgeon was going to use this shape and projection as a model for my right breast.
It did not look like model material to me.
Anyway like I said I went in for my mammogram. As you know, or should know you are not to wear any lotions perfumes or deodorant when going in for a mammogram. I began to sweat profusely as I started to disrobe, the beads of sweat were from fear. I wasnt worried they would find a lump. I was worried that when my breast was put in that vice like grip the nipple would pop off and shoot across the room. Then my boob would look like a crushed melon.
FEAR.... acronym: False Evidence Appearing Real.
No problems the test was fine and so was my nipple.
After that I decided I was not going to worry about that ever again. I will have a prosthetic Nipple made instead of one done surgically on my right breast. If that shot off during any mashing it would just stick to the wall like a window cling....
That is exactly what they look like except you can pick/match the color to your natural skin tones. It is held in place by an adhesive that allows it to stay put while swimming, excersise, showering and even during sex.
When this was expalined to me it reminded me of the old Tampax commercials "you can wear them Horseback riding, swimming, exercise and no one will know"lol
So a girlfriend and I had a little road trip to the nearest prosthetic nipple fitter, which was about an hour from where I live. My husband didnt want to go with me he wants to be suprised. Girlfriends are the best to shop with. They are honest and supportive...... Does this nipple make my butt look big?
Well it will take a couple of weeks to come in and until then I am rocking the tank tops with one headlight showing through. I will keep you updated on how it works out for me and my lick and stick nipple.........
Always your Breast Friend,
Janie Kay
There were some pretty tough times but overall it has been okay, I am still here and I have had a lot to laugh about during the last two years. The latest was my Last mammogram the first one I have had since my reduction surgery on my left breast.
They had to remove my left nipple and move it up higher. It would of looked really odd if they had left it in the same place and just reduced and lifted my breast. It probably would be somewhere below the curve of the breast facing down pointing to my left foot.
Even though the reduction surgery didnt hurt I was always a little nervous of the reattached nipple. It looked very pale and anemic of course there wasnt another one on the right side to compare it to. My Surgeon was going to use this shape and projection as a model for my right breast.
It did not look like model material to me.
Anyway like I said I went in for my mammogram. As you know, or should know you are not to wear any lotions perfumes or deodorant when going in for a mammogram. I began to sweat profusely as I started to disrobe, the beads of sweat were from fear. I wasnt worried they would find a lump. I was worried that when my breast was put in that vice like grip the nipple would pop off and shoot across the room. Then my boob would look like a crushed melon.
FEAR.... acronym: False Evidence Appearing Real.
No problems the test was fine and so was my nipple.
After that I decided I was not going to worry about that ever again. I will have a prosthetic Nipple made instead of one done surgically on my right breast. If that shot off during any mashing it would just stick to the wall like a window cling....
That is exactly what they look like except you can pick/match the color to your natural skin tones. It is held in place by an adhesive that allows it to stay put while swimming, excersise, showering and even during sex.
When this was expalined to me it reminded me of the old Tampax commercials "you can wear them Horseback riding, swimming, exercise and no one will know"lol
So a girlfriend and I had a little road trip to the nearest prosthetic nipple fitter, which was about an hour from where I live. My husband didnt want to go with me he wants to be suprised. Girlfriends are the best to shop with. They are honest and supportive...... Does this nipple make my butt look big?
Well it will take a couple of weeks to come in and until then I am rocking the tank tops with one headlight showing through. I will keep you updated on how it works out for me and my lick and stick nipple.........
Always your Breast Friend,
Janie Kay
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
What to do ...what to do.....
Last week I had my three month check up with my oncologists, rocking my new hair do and new lady bumps I walked into the office greeting staff and patients as though I was a regular fixture, more like a family member.
It had been my three month check up but in actual fact I hadn't been in the office since November 2011, I just kept rescheduling, at the time I thought it was good enough reason to, babysitting grandson was one, visiting Mother was another, couldn't be bothered was the third, finally I had to face the fact I was avoiding having to go back to what was, not what I felt like now.
I was feeling good Cancer and treatments was behind me I didn't want to be reminded of what I had been through. Once I had finally got enough gumption to go ahead and bite the bullet I decided to take in a bag of all my old head scarfs and hats and donate them to patients, I wasn't going to need them anymore and I certainly wasn't going to wear them again. I was confident I was cured, or was I? That is always nagging in the back of your head. What if? Would I be willing to go through it all again? I think I rode that horse long enough for my liking I wasn't about to ride again. I will walk thank you very much. So after the blood draws and lab results came back and i sat with the Doc and answered all the precursory questions, the visit was over.... wait I said does that mean I am okay? Sure he said," look July will be two years, I can't say it will never come back but if it was to it would normally return within the first two years from your original diagnosis", my heart did a little skip of relief, "great" I said, "now I think I need to have a Colonoscopy seeings that we are supposed to have our first one done at age 50 and I will be 55 this year.....But don"t schedule til July". What am I a masochist or a glutton for punishment. All these things we have to do to preserve or health, to live longer... to enjoy life and all it's goodness. To be a part of something greater than yourself, to tell your story so others wont feel so alone. Well at least the preparation for the Colonoscopy will help shed a few lbs to get me started on my summer weight loss program......lol.
Moral of the story is:
Dont make excuses peeps just do it, for shits and grins...xoxo
Always your breast friend
Janie Kay
It had been my three month check up but in actual fact I hadn't been in the office since November 2011, I just kept rescheduling, at the time I thought it was good enough reason to, babysitting grandson was one, visiting Mother was another, couldn't be bothered was the third, finally I had to face the fact I was avoiding having to go back to what was, not what I felt like now.
I was feeling good Cancer and treatments was behind me I didn't want to be reminded of what I had been through. Once I had finally got enough gumption to go ahead and bite the bullet I decided to take in a bag of all my old head scarfs and hats and donate them to patients, I wasn't going to need them anymore and I certainly wasn't going to wear them again. I was confident I was cured, or was I? That is always nagging in the back of your head. What if? Would I be willing to go through it all again? I think I rode that horse long enough for my liking I wasn't about to ride again. I will walk thank you very much. So after the blood draws and lab results came back and i sat with the Doc and answered all the precursory questions, the visit was over.... wait I said does that mean I am okay? Sure he said," look July will be two years, I can't say it will never come back but if it was to it would normally return within the first two years from your original diagnosis", my heart did a little skip of relief, "great" I said, "now I think I need to have a Colonoscopy seeings that we are supposed to have our first one done at age 50 and I will be 55 this year.....But don"t schedule til July". What am I a masochist or a glutton for punishment. All these things we have to do to preserve or health, to live longer... to enjoy life and all it's goodness. To be a part of something greater than yourself, to tell your story so others wont feel so alone. Well at least the preparation for the Colonoscopy will help shed a few lbs to get me started on my summer weight loss program......lol.
Moral of the story is:
Dont make excuses peeps just do it, for shits and grins...xoxo
Always your breast friend
Janie Kay
Friday, March 23, 2012
Patriotism
It was around 5:15 pm as I sat waiting for my grandsons little league game to start, the ball fields and spectator sections through out the ball park began to fill. The undeniable sound of cleets walking/running on the cement sidewalks, coaches rallying their teams with pregame warm ups. Parents and grandparents hustling to their child's field to support their little "athlete", whether they were stars, pinch runners and the occasional butterfly catcher in the outfield. "Baseball the great American Pastime". A game that can be played by old and young male and female. Spectators, with their drinks, popcorn or sunflowers seeds ready for the big game. I am a people watcher and as always I pay a lot of attention to whats going on around me. At exactly 5:25pm the loud speaker played a recording of a young lady singing the national anthem. The teams, coaches, older men and women rose to their feet and faced the flag removing their hats, many put their right hands over their hearts. I looked over to the American Flag waving in the breeze and then my gaze wandered off to the continued hustle and bustle of the people coming and going on the sidewalks around the ball park. I wouldn't call it disrespect, just maybe a little ignorant, there were several adults talking on the cells phones, children still running around and parents hollering at them to wait up. Shaking my head my gaze returned to the flag. I began to well up with tears, not so much of pride, but sadness. I thought of our soldiers fighting and dying for this flag. The innocence of the kids playing, that one day they would be fighting that fight and dying for that right. I looked back at the flag as the last verse was being sung "for the land of the free and the home of the brave". Play Ball, the concession stand opened and that was it game on.Sunflower seeds spit to the ground parents cheering on their teams, I sat for a moment, and said a word of thanks to those soldiers that have fought and lost their lives to All Flags. It's not until we are faced with this kind of truth that we can truly appreciate what we have. When I say All Flags I say this from my point of view as English woman who has seen patriotism and pride on both continents and as a Mother and Grandmother who wants a better life for her children. So if its ignorance or innocence may God bless our children keep them safe and protect us all. No lessons learned the hard way makes anyone a winner.
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